Reading the waves of burnout; or, What does it mean to be supported by those who might not understand my unmasked self?

I saw this tweet today: Common life strategy for autistic people: achieve/overachieve until burning out and maybe the overachievement will result in enough social and economic capital to see you through the burnout. High cost, high failure rate, inaccessible to many.— theories of minds (@theoriesofminds) March 4, 2018 And it struck a nerve. Because unlike … Continue reading Reading the waves of burnout; or, What does it mean to be supported by those who might not understand my unmasked self?

My top reads of 2021

I read 49 books this year, which is a horrendously frustrating number. Partially, it's because I spent most of the year gallivanting around with my new girlfriend. Still, I read some good books! Here are my top eight. 1. Why Are Faggots So Afraid of Faggots? (Anthology edited by Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore) This year I … Continue reading My top reads of 2021

A progress report on living life for real

I'm writing this, agog, agag, and awash, on the way home from a two-week holiday, so please forgive any inconsistencies in style or coherence. I have been to two events this summer: the Agen TPRS Workshop in the south of France and the 75th International Youth Congress of Esperanto in Liptovský Hrádok, Slovakia. The TL;DR … Continue reading A progress report on living life for real

I am draining away

When I was a teenager, I didn't feel like I had an identity at all. I was a bundle of trauma, loneliness, undiagnosed autism and unrealised transness. I barely communicated in the "real world", spending all my time with online communities and friends that spanned a gamut of abusiveness. I "came out of my shell" when I started doing youth theatre. I became more social, began to have an identity in the commonly accepted sense.